Theresa, I know it has been a year....but I am so curious what has shifted for you in this time period...

Hi everyone!

I thought I'd start off this forum by saying how much the April process meant to me.  Not only did you guys rearrange my cells (!) but you reaffirmed my faith in humanity, by holding a space of sweet kindess and compassion for me to heal.

I can't believe it's only been a few weeks.  My world is already shifting and I am joyfully in awe of the experiences coming my way.  I've spent the past two years wanting to make my first rock album, and in the last three weeks I have confirmed a producer (a veteran in the biz) who is just as excited about my music as I am.  Add to that the generosity of my parents who are funding the whole project and an influx of amazing peop;e who want to help birth it simply because this is also their bliss!

Of course there is a lot of processing too, and a lot of catching myself in old habits and recalibrating to my grandest vision.  But what I learned most from the Shadow Process was that once you got all the gunk out of the way (like the black stuff in a candle), your flame can stay steady and shine.  And when it does, others are drawn to it  The only difference between me chasing my dreams for two years and my dreams landing in my lap without now, is that I finally believe in myself, and that has shifted how EVERYONE is responding to me.

So thank you all again for your gentle honesty and support.  I look forward to updates about your journey too!

Love,
Fereshta

ahh...making it FIT everyday..I am at a point of self awakening as I am sure we would all like to call it. I get it I finally get it. It was MY opportune time...FINALLY....

I have lived the life of self hatred, sabotage you name it, I was obese at one point in my past, I am in the mist of eliminating the barriers and shedding the weight I have carried of self protection for it is no longer needed.

I get the fact that I must stay active and not play victim. I took myself (well the emotions) out of working out daily - I say it is exercise - people do it daily and any one can do it, so I got rid of making it about "I can't do it...poor me.."

I do the courses on line. I read and have read all the self help Hero's of our day. I preach, I listen I console. I reinvent myself daily it seems and these are all great things. Things that where foreign to me even a year ago, I am just working on making it all fit and realizing I dont have to go back to who I was.

The mental toggle at times seems like I am fading back and have lost all sense of what I had worked so hard to accomplish...the acknowledgement of the dark side, stepping out of denial and into the 'light'. I love what Debbie and this site represent.

Basically I am getting at are:

WHAT are some things that everyone else out there tells themselves to get out of the 'dark' and move on regardless of the set back?

Just looking for Ideas from fellow inspirational one's out there that are real with themselves and need not any denial to persuade their steps in this journey!

Thanks!

Welcome participants in the April 2008 Shadow Process. Use this forum to connect with each other...

Hello James, Marianne, & Rita!
Marilyn from Montreal here - I think I only know Rita - Hi Rita!!

I'm not sure what to post; I felt great after the workshop, even though I could have beat myself or the Universe up for stuff - I didn't!  I returned home feeling fabulous and having a new energy toward my husband and kids - which I still hold - mostly - but feel it slipping away a little.  I had a few down days, but must say that at the moment a bunch of people and things are falling into place to finally achieve the dream I've been working on for YEARS NOW!! and that it was all meant to take this long!!  and I am choosing not to self-sabotage by not doing what i know i must do - not even to question it with other equally great ideas but that will move me away from actually doing any - so what if this one is not the best way and it is the most expensive way - it's the way I thought of for jumping right in and making a big splash - so just do it! (terrified!! hence all the babbling.. thankyou for still being here!)

so, I am telling you what I will be doing and will have to come back and tell you that it's done or that it's not!  I am going to take out a full or half page ad in a local monthly parenting magazine to invite people who's kids are facing challenges in school; emotional, physical, labelling, whatever.. inviting them to a lecture (which will be about my story with my son, what i discovered, etc).  It is scary because I will be stepping out publicly saying things that go against all conventional wisdom and societal structures.. but that is what i am here for and it's high time i act!

what about you guys? any 1 little thing that I can support you in? even if it's jus tsharing a small step that you will take and talking about it so that it's less frightening or more empowering?

ok, enough.. ta for now, Namasté, Marilyn

Ok, February Shadow Process Friends:  Who's alive out there?  Is anybody reading Debbie's new book? (It is so good---it's like a rich dessert.  Read a little and just hold it in your heart/mind/thoughts for a while before taking the next bite.) It is very hard to stay present to this process if we try to do it all by ourselves.  It really helps to listen to Debbie's radio program and then to read her new stuff.  Who's in?

Speaking about the shadow... I understand that denying our shadow does not make it go away, if we deny it, it starts to act like a small child when you take away it's toy.... But I do not understand what is meant when it is said that by denying our shadow we suppress the light as well... how? Can someone give me some examples? Thanks!

Thanks for the answer. Previously I felt like no one has seen my posts I'll stand by for a solution.

Hi Katja,
I am investigating. I'll reply as soon as I have a solution.

I am sorry for this annoyance.
Rita

Hi guys,
Thanks for starting this conversation.  You've reminded me to lok through my workbook from the Shadow Process. I did this a few times the first couple of weeks back home & it supported me with my processing.

I re-connected to the experiences of the weekend. I'm reminded that I always have a choice about how I show up in any situation.

I'll write more later...
Rita